i have to have two different lives which is making me go mad.if i get stressed,it probably be because of family stuff than studies..

i have one side of me that enjoys stuff without any worries.but there another side of me that i have to be the 'centre person'for everything at home cause no one at home is able to help themselves.not that i blame them.it rarely i have a meal that no one worries and rarely a time where no one is in a rush or in a quarrel.

its like im the one who has to stay strong for everyone and solve everybodies problem .the thing is, i can never be the one who has a problem.we are supposed to be spending more time with our grand parents .one with depression one sick due to old age.my grandma can never not think about happy stuff.my grandfather just sturrborn..i have so much thoughts in my head right now i cant even express it out..sigh.i hate this.